HEY I just wanna say...

I do not own many of the things I share and/or talk about on this website.
If I do own something, my ego will actually force me to make that clear to you,

I promise.

If and when I post images of my handmade jewelry here, just know that these are crappy webcam pics of them. Sharper and prettier images of the products will be posted to the River Rock Jewelry site later, when the item is ready for sale!

You should get the total Jenny experience
by listening to the music video at the top of each post
while reading my ramblings.

And do not let my eccentric, vulgar music throw you off,
I'm a actually a well-adjusted, happy person!


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Thursday, December 31, 2009


To all of those whom I love, I hope you have a happy, safe and wonderful New Year! I shall be sitting in my computer room, drinking myself under the desk. This is last era of Dan K., IF you know what I mean. I have to change it all; make it clean so thatI can have the life I want. Life has changed so much for me already, just in the last 2 years. Some things are the same, and many more are not. I am madly in love with a man that drives me stark raving mad, and I love every moment of it. My demon dog Yaya is thankfully happy and healthy. MY relationship with my family is so much better than in the past. Things dont change much there, but my ability to handle it has changed dramatically. My father is the most sober than he's ever been, and close to going to rehab to get even more help. School is amazing. I've learned so much, and have so much more to learn. I hope that all of the work Ive been putting into this pays off for us.

Things aren't all great. Aunt Barbara isn't doing so well right now. The whole cancer ordeal has really gotten to her health, and she just seems defeated already. I cry every time I talk about this. I can't imagine her not being there. Grandmother either. She is like the rock of our family, and I cant even think about what it'll be like. I don't want to deal with it, but I know I have to face it just like everything else.

Overall, this has been one of the best years I can remember. And we are still well on our way up.

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(for all you naysayers!)

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Happy Holidays!!!

I do realize that it has been over half a month since I last wrote anything. To say the least, I have been very busy. School, family, home, work, and of course the holidays have kept me running. I just wanted to pop in and share some of the images from the digicam.

We did Aaron's 2 Christmas visits yesterday. His dad's family had theirs at 11am out in midtown. Aaron;s cousins live there and they have a very nice house, and 4 greats kids. They are all very sweet and like talking with me and Aaron. Last year we helped them build a rocket in the front yard, and this year we all sat and talked alot. We also watched some funny animal videos on youtube with them. They are very smart, extremely respectful, and have a ton of common sense. They have great parents. I can only hope that we have children half that sweet.

We ate like pigs, and then opened gifts. We got his dad a bunch of movies he really wanted. Aaron's dad got him some clothes, and a autographed book that he really liked about Dick Vitale. He got me (!!!)Season 3 of The Venture Brothers(!!!) haha

Then we went to his mom's house. She was alone for Christmas, except for the dogs. She was happy to have us over, and had even cooked a big ham and all the fixin's. So we ate again, and opened gifts. We got her movies that she wanted, including Harry Potter! lol She got us socks. no lie! and I loved them!!! She also got Aaron some clothes, and $100. She got me a freaking sweet 10 cup food processor. I'm gonna be able to make awesome salads with this thing.

Then tonight I went to my family's Christmas. Barbara had chemo yesterday, so she wasn't feeling well. I love her so much, and I want to see her happy again. She did smile when she hugged me; she seemed happy I was there. I felt bad that I didn't have a gift to give for the secret santa thing, but she made it all better. She literally put a coffee cup in a bag and handed it to me. It was so freaking funny. And sad that I didn't remember to get one. I felt bad. It's always my family I end up looking bad in front of. It drives me mad. f course,my grandafther counldn't letme visit without a lecture about being a pothead loser. But overall, it was ok. I got to talkto uncleKEn for a while, and my aunt Lisa was in a good mood. Grandmother and Pa aren't doing so well these days. I wish I had more time to hang out with them right now.

When I got home tonight, I found the batteries that I bought like a week ago for the camera. (and I finally found the camera) I hooked it all up and realized there are pictures still on here from back in August when Aaron, Yaya, and myself took a trip out to Richardson Landing in Tipton County to have a picnic on the river. It was flooded and overgrown, and we couldn't make it down to the riverbank to have the picnic, so we plopped down right in the parking lot of the landing and ate.
I also got a video of her panting, and she is so intent on catching every smell in the wind she cannot be stopped, even by the need to breathe!!! I love this dog.

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We are Scientists - Textbook

Friday, December 4, 2009


Oh, how I did laugh. I needed it too. I spent all of tonight studying medical terminology. lol

ALSO I found this:

Neat huh? I haven't had alot of time for recreational reading, but I really need to find a good book. I want to go to the big library on Poplar Avenue and renew my card.

Sleep is calling me. I work and I have a doc appointment afterward.

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Thursday, December 3, 2009

up too late

I've been nauseous all day, and my neck is stiff. I have an appointment Friday. I'm up studying late again, because I have a ridiculous amount of home work already, and I haven't even been to my first Thursday class this semester yet. I knew this term would suck. lol

I was thinking about decorating the Christmas lights like this guy on the right.

haha I wouldn't have anyone to point to though, since none of my neighbors go even the tiniest bit overboard. Maybe we should! We haven't even gotten any of it out of the attic yet.
Oh, but I want to!

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Just listen, don't pay attention to the video. It's a beautiful song.

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

something random

I usually don't listen to music like this, but it touched me.

Not just anybody

Is it a bad thing to say that I hope we have kids like these? Then we can watch videos like these!


I was so frustrated just a minute ago that I sent an email to the feedback section of ABC's website.

"Every time I watch any video that has the Target Ad running in the background, the video is extremely choppy visually and completely unwatchable. Any other ad does not cause this problem, only the Target Ad with the unnecessarily smug lady covered in wiggly little intractable red bubbles. I wait for her to strut her sassy self off screen, and then I try to watch the video again, only to eventually close it in frustration because it makes my head hurt to watch! Please make Target fix it!"

I will wipe this machine completely clean again before Ill spend another minute reinstalling and reconfiguring to figure out WHY it wont do what I WANT it to do and WHY it does WHATEVER it feels like. haha OK I vented. I feel better now. I don't know enough. Something else I need to learn.

I started MED 160 tonight. This class is called Medical Law and Ethics, and is taught by a very nice lady named Yolanda Davis. I thought right away that she is a boisterous and over the top, but in a good way. I hope there's no offense when I say she reminds me of a reverend's wife, or someone from the deep south like my home state of Mississippi. Dramatic words but no nonsense, and she'd give you the skin off of her back if you needed it. Listening to her talk is serious because of the subject matter, but she even said at one point that with a class like this, where there is ALOT of talking and little visual stimulus, you must learn to be creative and captivate you audience. I think she does a fantastic job. This class is shaping up to be exactly what I hoped it would be.

Im off tomorrow!!! YAY!!! I've been away for a few days because of my health. I'm sure I didn't mention it, but recently I had to go to the hospital for a cyst that burst in my uterus. I don't recommend the experience. I've never felt pain like that before. The only thing I have to compare to that was when I almost lost my right eye. This was so much worse because it was such a sharp pain and so overwhelming that all I could do was throw up and hope that I passed out soon. It literally made me want to crawl out of my skin. It was absolutely horrible. Haley knows what I'm talking about. Being a woman can really suck sometimes. I got an antibiotic, and they sent me home. Once the pain stops there's not much they can do for you. It burst and now your body just has to process out the toxins released by it. Oh, but not MY body. MY body decided to hang on to some of that disgusting toxin and store it up in my leg. It became absessed and had to repeat the terrible visit, but this time the pain was in my leg and I didn't go into the emergency room. They want too much money!!! This infection BS is starting to get to me. For one, MONEY!!! That's all I'm saying! Secondly, it runs you down. Physically, no matter how much sleep I get it never feels like enough. Even when I'm in a really good mood, I just don't have much energy to do anything. Things are getting better though. I'm mending nicely, and I should be going to a general practitioner sometime this week.

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I can't find the complete lyrics for this song anywhere, but I swear he says Beale Street!

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

my head is really heavy tonight

I am so exhausted, and I really should go crash out, but I just can't get the energy to get up out of this comfy chair. I worked 11-3/5-close tonight and my ankles are swollen, and my toe hurts, and my finger has a piece of glass embedded in it, and I DONT FEEL GOOD!!!

but this does

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BTW Aaron took good care of me when I got home. He got my dinner for me so I didnt even have to get up. He's too good to me.

Sunday, November 22, 2009

NSFW or anything really

I have been posting particularly evil things tonight.

Ok so this is specifically for Haley because of our love for Deadwood.

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Aaron playing this:

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Ok I just had to share this.

I laughed until I hurt.
And then I cried at how sad it is.

Then I saw this and thought how horrible it was, but also just the tiniest itsy bitsiest funny. What the hell is wrong with us?

this really is no joke. A couple of these kids in the background could use a slap on the back the head and WAY worse.

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old school (for me lol)

awe inspiring

This is just crazy.

I mean LOOK at all of them!!! I've seen a massive flock of birds a lot like this in person, and it is a sight that is unreal. It's a very hard feeling to explain.

I work 9 to 5 tomorrow, so I won't be up late. I was lucky enough to get home early tonight, so I had some time to hang out with Haley and then have a little time for myself. I'm off to work out and shower.

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Friday, November 20, 2009

late night rambling

First of all, when I saw this I actually said out loud the only word I could think of at that moment


I mean, It ATE the crocodile.
haha, no just kidding, but they did kill the croc.

Nature really is amazing.
And really scary.

I had a short day at work, so I took the time to call the Tennessee Department of Environmental Conservation. I talked to a very nice lady named Karen Grubbs in the Education and Outreach Department. She seemed very happy to provide me with some information on publication in one of their news letters, and even chatted with me for some time. So that's something. We shall wait and see if she likes the paper.

By chance, I'm actually off tomorrow. My project for the day is to disassemble the inside of our refrigerator and clean it all. It's WAY overdue. I'm sure that I won't get up early though. Tonight I got into some of the vodka we bought, and I'm up WAY too late again, so my plan is to sleep in! haha

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Thursday, November 19, 2009

Sometimes to go forward, we have to go back to nature.

I've been thinking a lot about how little time I spend these days out in the middle of the woods somewhere. Maybe I should take a day while I'm on school break and reconnect with the trees...

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I'm on another of my Indie/New wave kicks again. I guess those of you that hate it will just have to ride it out!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

I'm totally having a National Geographic moment right now.

Aaron sent me this earlier. It's so interesting to me how animals behave with one another. This really big, really dangerous leopard seal thought that the cameraman was juvenile seal. It then attempts over and over to teach it how to eat.

Isn't the world an amazing place?

I recently found this image of the Mars surface that I think shows how amazing a place the whole universe is.

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Tuesday, November 17, 2009

just for old time's sake

This is an piece that someone did of a song by Tiffany in The Jetsons movie.

WHAT?!? Don't look at me like that! It's purdy, (yes I said purdy) and YES I remember The Jetsons movie. My mother had a habit of buying our movies from Wal-mart back in the day.

I DID have Tiffany's album on vinyl. SO WHAT? Wanna fight about it?

Saturday, November 14, 2009

Friday the 13th

It was just another day for me.

I literally did nothing but work a 4 hour shift today. I needed the rest. I'm back to wearing the arm brace again, my left arm has taken a turn for the worse. It hurts all the time now, unless I wear the brace. Since all of this started happening with my hands I have little to no wrist strength. Sometimes my fingers hurt when I use them too. So soon (when I get my next paycheck), you'll see me with both my arms in braces. lol

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Thursday, November 12, 2009

I got my term paper back from Mr. Nichelson.

I know it's sideways,
but I dont know why.
Im sorry.
If you cant read it, it says,

I suggest that you send this to TVA "Community Affairs"
for possible publication in their newsletter.

I haven't heard back from them yet,
but I await their reply nervously.

I've already said this to a few people that I know,
but I'm really surprised at how well I am doing in school.
And very happy.

Hopefully all of this will help me get a good job.

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I don't know why,
but this music reminds me
of Adam and the Ants.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

My English Composition term paper

Why should we strive to conserve and protect the local water supplies?
By Jennifer Russell

Generally these days, when a person has a choice between their own convenience and doing what might be considered “the right thing to do” in a certain situation, people have a bad tendency of choosing convenience. They do not always consider that this decision might affect other people further down the road, including their own children. When you brush your teeth, you might not think immediately of water conservation. Did you know that turning off the water while you brush your teeth can save up to 2.5 gallons per minute? This is not just a simple case of saving water. This issue might affect generations of people who may already have little to no chance of getting the proper, clean water supplies that we take for granted today. If we do not act now to ensure that this extremely important, but often overlooked, resource is protected, our apathy might be dooming future generations to go to great lengths and cost to import or cleanse their water supplies.

The water supply for the city of Memphis originates from a huge underground source called the Mississippi Embayment, which underlies 48,000 square miles of land. It stretches from the southern tip of Illinois, through west Tennessee, Mississippi and southern Alabama, and into eastern Texas. The quantity of water available for use in the Mississippi Embayment is yet to be fully estimated, but is currently under study by the U.S. Geological Survey (USGS). The quality of the water pulled from the wells here in Memphis and in the many surrounding areas is considered very high in comparison to other areas of the United States. Our water was ranked number six in the nation for overall quality in 2008.

Scientists are just beginning to fully understand how this aquifer produces such high-quality water. It is a complicated process that takes many years. First, gravity pulls rain water down through the soil, to what is called a saturated zone, where water “saturates” this area rather than air. Over time, water moves from high-pressure zones that contain rock or clay, down into lower-pressured chambers within the crust of the earth. This water continues to travel further down these chambers, and is eventually stored in the aquifer. Studies show that it can take up to two thousand years for this process to occur. In Memphis and Shelby County alone, between 250 and 300 million gallons of water are pumped from this aquifer each day for public use. There are also over 500 private industrial wells that rely heavily on this high-quality supply of water.

It is not unreasonable to think that we might one day exhaust this important resource. For example, the High Plains aquifer is located under eight states from South Dakota to Texas, covering an area of 174,000 square miles. This aquifer is over three times the size of the Mississippi Embayment, and was mainly used for farming irrigation. Between 1987 and 1999 alone, it was depleted so badly that it was deemed unreliable as a water source in many areas. It was estimated by the USGS that over 270 cubic kilometers of water was removed from over 7,000 wells. Government-funded monitoring programs were started to reduce over-draining of the High Plains aquifer. Much work is left to be done to ensure that future generations will have proper water supplies in this area, but some progress has been made to reduce the rate of decline.

This example demonstrates that proper management is crucial to maintaining a long term water supply. Unfortunately for some areas, over-depletion may be unavoidable. When we build cities as populated and spread out as the Memphis area, we are assuredly pumping out more water than is supplied to the aquifer naturally. Considering this, it is possible to assume that eventual depletion in some areas may be inevitable. We simply cannot predict the future, and therefore should take as many precautions as possible to ensure that this resource is not abused. If the Mississippi Embayment’s resources can be managed properly, it is reasonable to believe that we have an answer to our long-term water supplies right here below our feet.

Depletion is not our only worry. We must also focus on taking better care of our resources. Pollution is the number one threat to ground water supplies. Many pollutants such as bacteria, parasites, chemicals, and metals have been recorded in ground water supplies across the country. Cryptosporidium is a parasite that has gotten quite a bit of press over the last few years for infecting water sources and making hundreds sick. Two inorganic chemical pollutants that have been recorded are asbestos, which comes mainly from the decay of cement in old water mains, and barium, a toxic pollutant which usually comes from metal refineries. An organic chemical called dichlorobenzene finds its way into the water table by runoff from industrial chemical factories. Aluminum is found in many water supplies around the country and has been associated with memory loss.

All of these contaminants can be dangerous if allowed to slowly seep into the water table. It has been a common belief among scientists for years that a thick layer of hard clay covered the top of the Mississippi Embayment, protecting the groundwater from pollution runoff. Recent research has shown that in some areas this layer of clay is non-existent, and many of the water samples in those areas have shown signs of contamination. We must push for the drafting and enacting of more conservation laws to ensure that our water supplies are protected from substances that could be detrimental to our health. It will take many years for pollutants to reach the aquifers deep beneath the surface, but we must keep in mind that our action or inaction may decide the fate of future generations’ water supply. This is a very important reason to be mindful in how you use water in your everyday life.

Consider for a moment what the world might be like in one hundred or even five hundred years from now. Most people refuse to connect with that on a real level that impacts them the same way as, for instance, not actually having water to drink or with which to cook their food. Now consider what it is like today for someone in an impoverished country, where not having this simple but vital resource is an everyday occurrence. Unfortunately, consideration and conservation is usually set to the side for the sake of convenience in nations with access to abundance. You might at this point, ask yourself, “What could I possibly do to help?” It’s as simple as paying more attention to how much water you use. The Tennessee Valley Authority has a list of simple suggestions that can help you to save thousands of gallons per year! Just visit their website at: http://www.tva.gov/river/watersupply/help.htm

Memphis politicians have much to do in working toward conservation and protection of our water supplies. Personally, I believe that we as a city should spearhead this movement, considering the already raging battles over water rights between West Tennessee and Mississippi over the huge amounts of water that Memphis pumps out of the aquifers on a daily basis. Mississippi has gone so far as to rewrite statutes that declare and reaffirm ownership of the water resources contained underground within their state. It seems that posturing for ownership of the most valuable resource of all has already begun.

We are lucky enough to have a vast, high-quality supply of a vital resource right below our feet. We cannot allow simple ignorance or apathy to eat away, little by little, something so important to everyday life. We must take the necessary steps now to ensure that future generations can enjoy the purity and abundance of water that we enjoy today.


It took me forever to write this. I kept getting tied up in how exactly I wanted to come across to the reader. I had alot of facts, but I wanted to be convincing without sounding too condescending or naggy. haha Overall, I think I did a good job. I'm actually surprised at how it sounds.

WELL, what do YOU think?

Aaron also found THIS sliding scale of cell size and scale today. It was really neat to see it all represented in that way.

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OH and BTW, don't even think about stealing my paper!

Saturday, October 31, 2009

Dreamland is where I'm headed

I wanted very quickly to give a huge thank you to Alex.
He made it possible for me to get tickets to tonight's Grizzlies game
for Aaron and his dad.

And for 5 bucks!

Alex, you don't even know how hard you rock.

Currently playing on JennyRadio: Warpaint - Stars

Friday, October 30, 2009

Word of the Day for Monday, October 26, 2009

loquacious \loh-KWAY-shuhs\, adjective:

1. Very talkative.
2. Full of excessive talk; wordy.

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Sleepy and silly!

I took this picture a while back.
I was up late messing with the camera in my new phone.

I'm really tired tonight, and I have to work tomorrow,
so I'm going to turn in early.
(well, early for ME.)
But know - I am almost done with the term paper
that is due this Monday.
I might post it, if anyone cares to read it.
I know Mr. Nichelson will!

Oh and btw,
go and visit the love of my life
on his blog
He recently posted
about a HUGE house
11 stories tall,
built by some guy,
Craziest thing I've seen.
ALSO, located here in TN.
How about that.

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Sunday, October 25, 2009

I have been ill again for several weeks. At this point, I'm not sure exactly what is wrong with me. No fever anymore, no real congestion. Just an awful sounding dry cough, which seems to appear when I am hot, or if the air is humid. And alternating deafness in one of my ears. Well not deafness, but everything sounds muffled like I have an ear infection, but no fluid or pain or tenderness. And it's REALLY messing with my vertigo again. I've had this problem off and on in my life, and this specific ear infection has made me lose my balance doing even simple tasks.

My father was here this morning. He came all the way to Memphis to buy me a new set of tires and an oil change. Nice of him isn't it? Despite all of the trouble and gas he spent getting to Memphis, and he was happy to do it. I feel bad that Tammy, (his girlfriend) has to be his chauffeur, but she seems glad to visit with us. I hope she feels welcome here. She is good for my father. She helps him to keep himself centered and grounded, and focused onmore important matters. She is a genuinely honest person; you can tell that from 5 minutes of talking to her.

I love Tammy.

Haley even drove all the way here from Tipton just to see my dad today. It had been many years, possibly 6 years, since she had seen him. They hugged and laughed about how old we all look now, and we sat around talking through the morning after he and I had gotten the car done. It was really nice.

Here's a pic from today of Haley and Ronnie (my father) that Aaron took while they were talking and not paying attention to him. (the sneaky bastard) He wanted me to apologize for the blurriness of the image, but I'm not gonna! You will look at this blurry image, and you will like it!!!!!!1

Aaron and I are both off tomorrow! YAY!!! And I am now off to bed. It's gonna feel so awesome to slip into that bed tonight, next to my love. I'm really exhausted, and I missed him alot today.

Friday, October 23, 2009

I've not been talking here a lot as of late. I've been buried neck deep in homework, and when I have had the time, I've been preoccupied with family and errands. I did get a chance to rewatch some Venture Brothers and remembered the cameo by a very animated Klaus Nomi. (go look him up if you don't know who he was) So I wanted to share some of his crazy alien opera love with you all.

I think he sings beautifully, and I know that he is dearly missed.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I only have a few things to show you,

First lets begin with:
It can be found here: click me and be in awe
(well, until they take it down)

If you have NOT had the chance to watch this show from the beginning, and if you have even the tiniest bit of humor for people who's dreams and aspirations in life are to become an evil villain and take over the world, then you MUST watch this show. It is absolutely ridiculous, and I love every character in the show. YES even the bad ones. But seriously, start from the beginning. It makes ALOT more sense that way.

Another gem that I ran across this week was:

Someone left it on the door of the bathroom,
so that it would known across the office
that they were the one that had to clean it up.
I know its random and silly, but I laughed until it hurt.

And lastly, my latest doodle.

I'm doing better with the smoking btw,
I'm giving myself a few days to wind down and then

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Oh, and before I go,
THIS and THIS - both are for Aaron,
and THIS is for Haley.
(I thought they might make you laugh)

Friday, October 16, 2009

sick sick sick

Man, my head is stopped up with all kinds of insanity, and my chest feels like its going to cave in. I should be asleep but NO I'm up at 430 in the morning with a fever, coughing up my left lung. And Im dying for a cig. NO! SLEEP!! NOW!!!

I hate myself. Good thing Aaron loves me.

Wednesday, October 14, 2009

more drawings

These first two I did last night


The rest of these are older,
I'm too lazy to tell when.

I draw such random stuff.

Don't ask. I seriously don't know.

A seahorse I never finished.

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Faithless - "Mass Destuction"


Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Again, I might duck out at any moment.

My Office class is winding up and we are about to take a test on PowerPoint and Word.

Today when I got home from work, Donny had just gotten home, and Leslie was on her way out the door. Donny sat down with me while I ate lunch and practiced some of the songs he and his buddy perform. They do covers, and also have songs that they have written. Donny seems to be very good at what he does, and he has a very nice singing voice. It inspired me to sing at the top of my lungs in the shower, while I got ready for school. I HAVE to stop smoking. It has destroyed my voice. I want to go to the doctor, to find what would be best for me to use to help me kick this bad habit of mine. I'm very tired of waking up in the morning and hacking up part of my lung. It is time, there is no denying it anymore. Id appreciate any kind of advice about this, I have had a really hard time resisting the urges I feel when I dont smoke.

this one felt very real

Tonight, after Aaron went to bed, I played this song over and over...
O Fortuna

It helped me to remember.
This song played the length of my dream last night.

I was standing on a wide, partially frozen river. It was snowing, and the wind was bitterly cold against my face and extremities. I wasn't totally aware of myself, but I was shivering, and wanted badly to find something to cover my feet from the ice. I could see that the banks of the river on either side were very far away from me, and I could not decide which way to cross. I couldn't even remember why I was there in the first place, so the confusion soon lead to feelings of panic. I walked for what seemed like an eternity, toward what seemed to be the closest point to me. By the end of the trek, I was falling down exhausted, and half freezing to death. It was at this point that I actually saw myself, but it wasn't my face. It was the face of a stranger. I was shabbily dressed, beat up and sickly looking, and much older. The music during the dream had risen from the panic of figuring out that I am on a frozen wasteland, to the long journey across the cold expanse. Finally here, as I am falling down in an epic struggle of life and death, at what seemed to be a snow covered river bank only a moment ago, the music rises again to a deafening level of grandness. I use my frozen arms to pull myself to the edge, only to discover that I am lying facing down over the edge of an eternal abyss in every direction, except the land of frozen waste I just came from.

I didn't wake from this dream,
but I remembered it vividly when I did wake.
It's been a long time since I had a dream like that.

Oh, and finding this song with clips from Death Note was just a bonus btw.
I didn't do that part on purpose.

I'm off to go curl up in the bed next to my man,
and hopefully have more peaceful dreams tonight.

Monday, October 5, 2009

I want to do this to my hair

But with different colors.
Maybe I'll stay with my natural brown and do the black underneath.
Or possibly a red, WHO KNOWS?
I haven't quite made up my mind yet.

After getting off on Saturday night, I was exhausted.
I slept like the DEAD.

Today I was off, so Aaron and I made pancakes and sausage for breakfast. Then I rearranged the side living room AGAIN now that Donny is all moved in. (did I mention that before? okay well if i didn't, Richard's buddy Donny moved into Ian's old room this weekend.) It's just until he gets his own apartment. He is separating from his wife, so he needed a layover spot I suppose. Im just happy to pay less rent. Between his job and their little girl, he won't be here often, he "really just needs a place to store his stuff," he says. He seems like a nice guy, he makes a good wage at a local dairy doing deliveries. At least I know up front that he will be able to cover his rent, but we shall see where this adventure leads us.

Oh and I spoke to the landlady. She says she won't sell the house out from under us, thatshe willlet us know "well in advance." I'm sure that could mean anything. I'm really afraid this is gonna be bad, but I'm going to keep my cool about it. I think moving out of this place and getting something else would be nice, but COME ON you can't beat $175 a month. And God knows, we need it be cheap while I'm still in school.

The dogs, Yaya and Sunny, are getting along much better recently. They are almost playing with each other! Right now, they are kind of stuck on the playing around each other phase. Yaya I think has gotten used to Sunny barking alot when she's excited. At first Yaya's ears would just go straight back, and her tail would drop, and she'd look at me like "WHY IS SHE BARKING?!?!?" She does that less now, and Sunny doesn't attack Yaya when she growls while playing. She will still sort of nip at her, but not hurt her. They haven't figured out how to share toys yet though. That one I think will take a while. Maybe I could get them to play tug of war with a long rope. It's worth a try.

I work and go to school tomorrow and Tuesday.
I should be off Wednesday, but I dont know for sure yet.

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Saturday, October 3, 2009

this is what you get

This week has been absolutely horrible. But I'm keeping a positive attitude about it. I think overall I've managed to keep my head on tight. Well, except Thursday night, which you will read about below. I think that it was like the straw that broke the camel's back on that particular day, mainly because did it to myself by locking my keys IN my car. So as the event below unfolded, I slowly was overtaken by the urge to throw something and break it.

This letter to my math teacher began as a simple explanation, and turned into a rant. I probably shouldn't have sent it, but I didnt really think about it clearly at the time. My mind was clouded by lack of sleep and absolute anger at missing class for all of it. And I'm not rewriting it right now, I'm still too upset. And I have homework to do so learn to live with it. It could have been alot worse.

I'm sure you get excuse filled emails like this from students all the time who are trying to get sympathy for missed class. This is not my intention. The other day was ridiculous for me, and I apologize that it interrupted your class. When I locked the keys in the car, I immediately went to the front desk and called my fiance (who was home waiting on the AC repairman) so he could find a locksmith to come out there to the college.

I have had bad luck getting locksmiths to come out at 8:30 pm, and I NEEDED this car for the double that I worked the next day. The locksmith people told him it would be about 15-20 minutes, and that I should wait outside for the driver. So I waited a little over a half an hour before calling my fiance to find out what was going on. He called back to the front desk, and told me that it would be another 15 minutes; that the guy got into some trouble on the way. I worried about missing the test we might take that night, but I went outside to wait. ANOTHER 30 minutes go by and I'm starting to get upset.

I call my fiance, and he doesn't answer his cell or the house phone for about 20 minutes, and when I do finally get a hold of him, he says that the repair guy showed up to fix our AC unit. Well, at least Ill have a cool house to come home to tonight. I am still pretty upset about the locksmith not showing up, so I ask for the number myself so that I can call them. When I do, I find out that they dont even know where the driver is; that he hasnt answered his cell for over a half an hour. So I ask if they can supply another driver. They say yes, and that they will call me back in a few minutes to let me know when he will be there. So I sit by the phone at the front desk, and no call. At this point I am very upset that I have missed so much class, and that was when I came back in and told you to mark me down as absent. I was going to call another locksmith service. My fiance ended up coming down to the school to help me take care of this. By the time that we got a locksmith to open the car, class was almost over. I am SO sorry about all this. I simply cannot afford to lose my job.

That same day, I had a conversation with my landlady about the possiblity of her selling our house out from under us. Our lease has expired and she has pulled every trick in the book to keep from re-leasing with us. She told me in that conversation that she was just tired of keeping up with so many homes, and that ours would be among those to go. On what I make, I worry alot about making ends meet. It is the real reason behind me going back to school.

My real reason for writing you was to find out what homework you gave on Thursday night. This is the first class I've ever missed so I was a little unprepared for contacting a classmate. I'd really appreciate it.


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Thursday, October 1, 2009

another word of the day

adjuvant \AJ-uh-vuhnt\,


1. Serving to help or assist; auxiliary.
2. Assisting in the prevention, amelioration, or cure of disease.


1. A person or thing that aids or helps.
2. Anything that aids in removing or preventing a disease, esp. a substance added to a prescription to aid the effect of the main ingredient.

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Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Ok, I know I'm a little late but here's my piece

I knew the Dalai Lama was town, but I hadn't heard about any of this until I went to English Comp class on Monday. We talk about current events in class, so I heard it like this... Apparently when Myron Lowery met with the Dalai, instead of shaking his hand, he greeted him with a "fist bump". You know, like he was one of the homies. My teacher argued that it was unprofessional of him, and I can understand that view point. I think our politicians should be serious, and humble.

When I got home, I brought it up to Aaron,and he practically rolled his eyes. He told me to just go watch the video online of the Dalai's reaction. I did watch the video, and it seemed he was very good natured about it, and maybe even appreciated the gesture. Aaron said that after the cameras went away the Dalai did it several more times and had quite a good laugh out of it.

Aaron also told me that this gesture, the fist bump, has been going on for several weeks in the city council, mainly due to people trying to limit contact of skin because of the H1N1 virus. And then I found an interview with Lowery about the incident.

Personally, YES, I wish that our politicians would be more considerate and professional. I wish they'd take responsibility, and do their jobs to the best of their abilities. But I can't slam Lowery for this one. The Dalai isn't the Pope. He really seemed to enjoy the sentiment, and I figure it is open-minded publicity for this city, considering all of the oppression and bullshit that people believe about other people's perspectives about anything!!! None of that made any sense did it?

Anyways, watch the short little video and decide for yourself.

Dalai Lama Embraces the Fist Bump

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Tuesday, September 29, 2009

I just thought it was worth mentioning

The Dictionary.com word of the day is:

ameliorate \uh-MEEL-yuh-rayt\, transitive verb:

1. To make better; to improve.

intransitive verb:
1. To grow better.

How appropriate.

I dont have time now, its too late, but I want to remind myself to write something about the "fist bump" fiasco this week. AND TO STUDY YOUR MATH!!!

Monday, September 28, 2009

These are from a few nights ago, while I studied.
I need to post a lot of stuff that I just haven't yet.
Because I'm getting lazy. haha

Here's some more Ive recently scanned,
some from a very long time ago.

Hope you like!
I'll post more late in the week,
when I have some spare time.

Friday, September 25, 2009

I made a 98 on one test and a 100 on the other in my Calculations of Dosage class. Math is usually my weakest subject, but now that I've gotten some confidence actually using some of these equations to do the conversions, I GOT THIS.

BTW I LOVE English Comp! My teacher is very interesting and down to earth. For homework, I only have to write a 3 paragraph essay on the topic:

"The 3 best things I can do for myself"

I've already planned it and written the outline, but I'm gonna write it on Sunday, when I'm off work. I'm also going to bake a cake for Aaron that day. And he said we might even go see a movie.

I haven't said recently how in love I am with this man. We might not always be able to show each other how much, but I love him more than I can express, more than even I understand. I cant imagine living without him anymore. Is that a little too crazy? Whats funny is I just dont care. It feels like it was meant to be to me, and its all I want. Him. It's funny when I catch myself thinking things like why HAVENT we gotten married yet? Oooh oooh... better not jinx myself there.

Im off to bed. I work all weekend.

OH! I want bring back an old tradition in my posts before I go...

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Watch the video, its pretty weird/silly/funny.
And it makes me smile. The song, not the video. lol <3

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

This Russian chick really hates Kirk Cameron

and i think it's funny


Im up at like 3 in the morning studying calculations and conversions of the Metric, Apothecary, and Household systems of measurment...

I feel so smart!
and suddenly very sleepy haha

I wanted to share a tiny taste of my math/dosage calculation memorization
for the test thursday

I love my new printer/scanner/copier/photomaker/coffemaker/toaster/weaponofmassdestruction superprinter!!!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Class is about to start so I might just suddenly stop talking and post this...

Ive actually been posting alot on my private blog, trying to rant about some of the things that are driving me crazy right now. These are some of things that have been happening:

Richard got a new dog (Sunny) who I will be posting pictures of later.

One of Leslie's bosses got H1N1 flu and is very very sick.

Richard might be in trouble with the credit card companies, but we will know more later.

I LOVE MY CLASSES - English is awsome. My teacher, Mr Nichelson is so interesting and he really strives to get us to think. My Microsoft Office class is SO FREAKING BORING right now. Its understandable because he's teaching the class like we've never touched a pc before. So I'm trying to keep from falling asleep in every class. But eventually we will move from Word and Excel (which I know) to powerpoint and access (which I don't) and maybe I won't be so bored. And then there's the MED class. Dosage and Calculation of Medications. Basically it's math. AND I HATE MATH.

I was sitting here earlier waiting on class to start and i found an AWSOME FREAKING IMAGE of super typhoon Choi-Wan which hit Category 5 this afternoon.

Aaron and my mom's birthdays are coming up on the 22nd. I know what I'm getting mom, but I'm still unsure about what exactly Aaron would like.

Class is starting back up so I'm gonna run.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Ok so tonight sucked. lol I got a headache from staring at the projector for so long while being so close during class. So once I got home and took something, that took me a little while to get over, and now that I feel better I wanted to talk some more. haha

Tonight in my Microsoft Office class I converted someone to blogger.com! Angela, who was in my Oral Communications class last semester, and who also sits next to me in this Office class, asked me what I was working on when I posted earlier about Paul. I showed her how Blogger works, how she can tie it into her Yahoo account, and she was hooked. Within two minutes, she had made a blog with a huge smile on her face the whole time. It really made my night to make her so happy.

So I almost forgot to tell you (and by you I mean anyone who might stumble to this page of infinite insanity) that the Levitt Shell concert series is going on!!! FREE MUSIC CONCERTS to the public September 3 through October 4. These concerts are on every Thursday Friday Saturday and Sunday night at 7pm at the Levitt Shell in Overton Park. It is mostly open grassy areas, where you can spread out the blanket or fold out chairs and listen to ALL kinds of music. PLEASE GO!!! This is an event where you can you meet your neighbors, and find new friends! Go to the Levitt Shell website for more info!
Im at school so I dont have very long. I just wanted to say...

Dr. Paul called me today, and said he was on the long trip from Pennsylvania to Florida. He thought maybe he might come close enough to Memphis to stop by my house and visit for a while. But once we calculated how far he was from my house at that moment, compared to my school and work schedule we realized it wouldnt work. He would have gotten here REALLY late, like 3 or 4 and I needed to be in bed for work by then. So YET AGAIN, I didnt get to meet Paul. It's not anyone's fault, but it would have been really nice to hug him in person.

ah crap, I got to go... class is starting backup.

Thursday, September 3, 2009

This is some very interesting artwork Aaron found on deviant art. Alot of the other works on his page are twisted versions of Disney characters. I loved these one of course.

Twisted Princess: Alice by ~jeftoon01 on deviantART

Twisted Princess: Cinderella by ~jeftoon01 on deviantART

Twisted Princess: Aurora by ~jeftoon01 on deviantART

Im very tired tonight and it is already WAY too late for me to be up, since I have school and work tomorrow. I just needed to say something before I sleep. Here I go talking about myself again! (I am so in love with myself.)

There have been few people in my life that I have loved like family, even though we might not seemed as close as I felt we were. For many reasons, one of which being that some people are not as emotional, or as expressive about their emotions to one another as I am. I tend to be overbearing and needy, and I recognize this. I try to compromise with people for who they are, and honestly it hurts my feelings when someone tells me I over react about something that I feel I had a right to react to. I don't want to be this annoying person who people see as overemotional and flaky. But at the same time I refuse to let people tell me how I should feel about something, or someone. I get my opinions too, you know. Right or wrong, just like everyone else. I get very little time to socialize and enjoy the company of friends, so I flat out refuse to let any bullshit impede upon that time. So I simply continue to live my life...

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

something smart, and something stupid


If you have never watched the movie The Dark Crystal,
this will make absolutely NO sense to you.
If you have, prepare to laugh.

Friday, August 28, 2009

I would never vote for him, but...

We watched the Memphis Mayoral Debate last night, and honestly my curiosity got the better of me when considering Prince Mongo. My first knowledge and/or contact with him, was when Haley and I were teens - just juniors in high school. We went to one of his clubs, The Castle, and he was there greeting people at the door with cosmic love and hugs. Haley told me that Mongo used to babysit her father as a child, and that the older generations of their families knew each other well. Haley's brother was with us, and he made the introductions. Spirit Dylan, and Spirit Haley, and Spirit Jenny - that's what Mongo called us. He gave many hugs and talked about how warm and happy he was to see us, and then off he went to get us all alcoholic drinks.

Prince Mongo has been a long standing insult to people who take Memphis politics seriously. The local news channels had many comments from people last night after the debate, but the one that stuck with me was Wendy Thomas, who said that Mongo "was a joke" and that it was hard to keep from laughing at him while asking him questions. I can understand that, he can be a ridiculous person who's ideas are far reaching to someone who lives in the middle of the political stew pot like Wendy. And he LOOKS like a crazy person. He really did have one leg painted pink and the other purple, NO shoes, and of course his typical silly getup...

Yes, that is a rubber chicken. And space goggles. Did I mention he is the ambassador of the planet of Zambodia and claims to be 333 years old?

But seriously, who dresses like this and is smart enough to keep himself out of legal trouble? Not just casually, I mean this guy knows the law. He understands where the general line is, in private or public, and even on television. He knows just how far to step over that line. He understands how to push the right buttons of people, to say just enough crazy things and just enough smart things to keep people wondering. Just go look him up, you'll see what I mean.

He was in the past smart enough to have many businesses, but due to his abhorrence for authority, the fact that he served minors in his clubs, and a general disregard for proper business practices, he has lost the ones in Memphis that were popular with young crowds.

So it makes me wonder, DOES he do all of this on purpose? I mean I always assumed that he was either bat shit crazy, or he really enjoys fucking with people, because he's rich and he can. BUT I WANT TO KNOW. I wish I could just sit with him for a while and hang out, talk to him, find out what motivates him to be who he is, away from the cameras. I'm just curious about people like that.

He has run for many offices, and lost. But he doesn't give up. (Whats with the heads?)

Its not like I want to be best buddies with this guy, I think being close to someone like him could be dangerous. But again I'm intrigued by instability. I went online to try and find a recently updated web page for him, but couldn't. Even his public myspace page was last updated over a year ago. Whatever he is doing, he's not putting it on the web. Now I did happen to run into the one thing I don't like about Mongo. Very few people outside of the places where he has homes (Memphis, Virginia, and Southern Florida) know who the hell he even is. So that of course leads to this:

It drives me crazy to see them making Memphis a joke. But it cant be helped when the law allows for a candidate to need only 25 signatures and $100 to be on the ballot. Mongo can more than afford that anyways. But I had to notice, he might have talked too long past the cut times for each answer, but Mongo was calm and sat quietly during other debaters comments. He didnt yell out at Mr Carpenter about city bonds, he didnt lose his cool when they laughed at him. And as he plays that part, he quickly sheds it to become at least something like the shrew businessman that probably made him millions. Since no one knows where Mongo's wealth really comes from, it makes it even more mysterious.

Want to see Mongo before all of the crazy clothes? I found this too.

Ive been sick as a dog this week, so I thought Id take some time off from housework and resting to say my part about current events. (I can't vote btw, my permanent address is in Tipton County) School starts back on the 31st so Ill be busy as all hell. Hope everyone is well!