I always feel so good after a workout

(Passion Pit is awesome to workout to!)

Hell, Ive forgotten how good the after feeling is, I've let it go for so long. 5 minutes of stretching, then 20 minutes of dancing with gentle toning movements for my arms and legs, Then 10 minutes of reps for my butt, back, arms and legs. Then 5 miles on the bike to really get the heart rate going. Today I went a half a mile longer. Then I walk some if it off, and stretch again. MAN do I feel good now. Before I started it felt like an old diesel engine getting started up, and I almost NEVER want to work out. But I make myself get up, put on a headset of loud fast music, and slowly start stretching. I close my eyes and imagine being on the dancefloor at a club with my friends. It puts me in one of those euphoric moods, and makes it easier to get into the mood to move lol

I had a workout buddy today! She wasn't very motivational though lol Yaya sat the whole time next to the bike like, WTH is she doing?!?!? STOP IT AND PLAY WITH ME!!!

I've also gotten myself out of the habit of writing again, and I finally accept that my general daily attitudes come in phases. Some days I let life get to me, and regularly wallow in my own self pity for a while. Then after my "girl time" usually, I hit a high peak again, and I'm back on track. Now, I happen to be back on my track of good thoughts and motivation. Realizing this about myself made this last bad phase easier to motivate myself. I just have to always keep in mind, good or bad mood, that i can do this... whatever it is. I have been through worse, and noone can beat me down but ME.

I can do this. I WILL do this, for ME.<3

because it's never over...

As is customary for me the last few years, it has been a while since I wrote here. I don't feel as much of a need to share every thought I have all of the time anymore. lol I usually share these ideas with Aaron, or I just keep them to myself. In fact, I can safely say that I have been so consumed with school, jewelry making, and drawing lately to even write at all for any length of time.

One thing I have done in my spare time is watch almost every episode of Law and Order: Criminal Intent ever made. It has helped fuel my current obsession with young Vincent D'onofrio. Have I ever mentioned how freaking HAWT he was as a young man? Just don't tell Aaron. He'll get a complex about it, and then I'll have to prove to him how much I love him and not Vincent. lol Maybe I'll do that anyways, just because I love Aaron so damned much, and I like to see him blush and smile at me. If he only knew how much I love him.

I've always thought that Vincent was a spectacular actor. He is one of those few actors I would like to meet. I just want to know what he's like in person. Probably nothing like the character from Law and Order, which is what I always imagine in my head. lol Robert Goren is one of those characters that I hope like hell is even possible as a real person in this world. I could only hope to be half as good as that character is. As in morally, as in logically, as in emotionally. It's not real, over even realistic. But I do love my fantasy! It's hard for me to express how I feel about it here. I do much better in conversation. Try asking me sometime. I'm sure we will spend an hour talking about it. lol

Speaking of which, I took a personality test tonight that ended up defining me as a ESFJ type personality. It's really close. I think that the narrow scope of ESFJ is what I was at 16. I'm getting wider though, and not just in my hips. I think, by this page's definition and my own internal judgment, that I have grown so much since then. I don't ever want to stop getting better, smarter, and more able to relate and express to others.It's very important to me.

It's so late, and I'm exhausted. There is about 5 inches of snow on the ground right now, so I'm not sure if we will even be open in the morning, but I am supposed to be at work in like 7 hours. I really must sleep, though my brain does NOT want to stop right now. That's what a half a bottle of vodka and 2 hours Robert Goren does to me. lol

Gnite darlings.

OH and btw, I gots mah hairs cut n dyed. AH LUVz  EEET!!!