Dreamland is where I'm headed

I wanted very quickly to give a huge thank you to Alex.
He made it possible for me to get tickets to tonight's Grizzlies game
for Aaron and his dad.
And for 5 bucks!

Alex, you don't even know how hard you rock.

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Word of the Day for Monday, October 26, 2009

loquacious \loh-KWAY-shuhs\, adjective:

1. Very talkative.
2. Full of excessive talk; wordy.

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Sleepy and silly!

I took this picture a while back.
I was up late messing with the camera in my new phone.

I'm really tired tonight, and I have to work tomorrow,
so I'm going to turn in early.
(well, early for ME.)
But know - I am almost done with the term paper
that is due this Monday.
I might post it, if anyone cares to read it.
I know Mr. Nichelson will!

Oh and btw,
go and visit the love of my life
on his blog
He recently posted
about a HUGE house
11 stories tall,
built by some guy,
IN A TREE.
Craziest thing I've seen.
ALSO, located here in TN.
How about that.

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this is for my mother

and it is beautiful
It reminds me of home.

I have been ill again for several weeks. At this point, I'm not sure exactly what is wrong with me. No fever anymore, no real congestion. Just an awful sounding dry cough, which seems to appear when I am hot, or if the air is humid. And alternating deafness in one of my ears. Well not deafness, but everything sounds muffled like I have an ear infection, but no fluid or pain or tenderness. And it's REALLY messing with my vertigo again. I've had this problem off and on in my life, and this specific ear infection has made me lose my balance doing even simple tasks.

My father was here this morning. He came all the way to Memphis to buy me a new set of tires and an oil change. Nice of him isn't it? Despite all of the trouble and gas he spent getting to Memphis, and he was happy to do it. I feel bad that Tammy, (his girlfriend) has to be his chauffeur, but she seems glad to visit with us. I hope she feels welcome here. She is good for my father. She helps him to keep himself centered and grounded, and focused onmore important matters. She is a genuinely honest person; you can tell that from 5 minutes of talking to her.

I love Tammy.

Haley even drove all the way here from Tipton just to see my dad today. It had been many years, possibly 6 years, since she had seen him. They hugged and laughed about how old we all look now, and we sat around talking through the morning after he and I had gotten the car done. It was really nice.

Here's a pic from today of Haley and Ronnie (my father) that Aaron took while they were talking and not paying attention to him. (the sneaky bastard) He wanted me to apologize for the blurriness of the image, but I'm not gonna! You will look at this blurry image, and you will like it!!!!!!1


Aaron and I are both off tomorrow! YAY!!! And I am now off to bed. It's gonna feel so awesome to slip into that bed tonight, next to my love. I'm really exhausted, and I missed him alot today.

I've not been talking here a lot as of late. I've been buried neck deep in homework, and when I have had the time, I've been preoccupied with family and errands. I did get a chance to rewatch some Venture Brothers and remembered the cameo by a very animated Klaus Nomi. (go look him up if you don't know who he was) So I wanted to share some of his crazy alien opera love with you all.



I think he sings beautifully, and I know that he is dearly missed.

I only have a few things to show you,

First lets begin with:

THE NEW EPISODE OF THE VENTURE BROTHERS SEASON FOUR!!!
OMG OMG OMG lol
It can be found here: click me and be in awe
(well, until they take it down)

If you have NOT had the chance to watch this show from the beginning, and if you have even the tiniest bit of humor for people who's dreams and aspirations in life are to become an evil villain and take over the world, then you MUST watch this show. It is absolutely ridiculous, and I love every character in the show. YES even the bad ones. But seriously, start from the beginning. It makes ALOT more sense that way.

Another gem that I ran across this week was:

Someone left it on the door of the bathroom,
so that it would known across the office
that they were the one that had to clean it up.
I know its random and silly, but I laughed until it hurt.

And lastly, my latest doodle.

I'm doing better with the smoking btw,
I'm giving myself a few days to wind down and then
NO MORE!

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Oh, and before I go,

THIS and THIS - both are for Aaron,
and THIS is for Haley.
(I thought they might make you laugh)

beautiful

This is also for Chelsea!! (♥Chelsea♥Paige♥) by 〖˚Pǝαςhσċѕ˚〗 on Polyvore.com

my fav muppets skit of all time

I know it's silly but I loved this show.

sick sick sick

Man, my head is stopped up with all kinds of insanity, and my chest feels like its going to cave in. I should be asleep but NO I'm up at 430 in the morning with a fever, coughing up my left lung. And Im dying for a cig. NO! SLEEP!! NOW!!!

I hate myself. Good thing Aaron loves me.

more drawings

These first two I did last night

Helper!

The rest of these are older,
I'm too lazy to tell when.

I draw such random stuff.

Don't ask. I seriously don't know.

A seahorse I never finished.

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Faithless - "Mass Destuction"

INACTION IS A WEAPON OF MASS DESTRUCTION!

ok so I've been doodling alot, wanna fight about it?

lat night's doodles

And a good song too

Again, I might duck out at any moment.

My Office class is winding up and we are about to take a test on PowerPoint and Word.

Today when I got home from work, Donny had just gotten home, and Leslie was on her way out the door. Donny sat down with me while I ate lunch and practiced some of the songs he and his buddy perform. They do covers, and also have songs that they have written. Donny seems to be very good at what he does, and he has a very nice singing voice. It inspired me to sing at the top of my lungs in the shower, while I got ready for school. I HAVE to stop smoking. It has destroyed my voice. I want to go to the doctor, to find what would be best for me to use to help me kick this bad habit of mine. I'm very tired of waking up in the morning and hacking up part of my lung. It is time, there is no denying it anymore. Id appreciate any kind of advice about this, I have had a really hard time resisting the urges I feel when I dont smoke.

this one felt very real

Tonight, after Aaron went to bed, I played this song over and over...

O Fortuna

It helped me to remember.
This song played the length of my dream last night.

I was standing on a wide, partially frozen river. It was snowing, and the wind was bitterly cold against my face and extremities. I wasn't totally aware of myself, but I was shivering, and wanted badly to find something to cover my feet from the ice. I could see that the banks of the river on either side were very far away from me, and I could not decide which way to cross. I couldn't even remember why I was there in the first place, so the confusion soon lead to feelings of panic. I walked for what seemed like an eternity, toward what seemed to be the closest point to me. By the end of the trek, I was falling down exhausted, and half freezing to death. It was at this point that I actually saw myself, but it wasn't my face. It was the face of a stranger. I was shabbily dressed, beat up and sickly looking, and much older. The music during the dream had risen from the panic of figuring out that I am on a frozen wasteland, to the long journey across the cold expanse. Finally here, as I am falling down in an epic struggle of life and death, at what seemed to be a snow covered river bank only a moment ago, the music rises again to a deafening level of grandness. I use my frozen arms to pull myself to the edge, only to discover that I am lying facing down over the edge of an eternal abyss in every direction, except the land of frozen waste I just came from.

I didn't wake from this dream,
but I remembered it vividly when I did wake.
It's been a long time since I had a dream like that.

Oh, and finding this song with clips from Death Note was just a bonus btw.
I didn't do that part on purpose.

I'm off to go curl up in the bed next to my man,
and hopefully have more peaceful dreams tonight.

I want to do this to my hair

But with different colors.
Maybe I'll stay with my natural brown and do the black underneath.
Or possibly a red, WHO KNOWS?
I haven't quite made up my mind yet.

After getting off on Saturday night, I was exhausted.
I slept like the DEAD.

Today I was off, so Aaron and I made pancakes and sausage for breakfast. Then I rearranged the side living room AGAIN now that Donny is all moved in. (did I mention that before? okay well if i didn't, Richard's buddy Donny moved into Ian's old room this weekend.) It's just until he gets his own apartment. He is separating from his wife, so he needed a layover spot I suppose. Im just happy to pay less rent. Between his job and their little girl, he won't be here often, he "really just needs a place to store his stuff," he says. He seems like a nice guy, he makes a good wage at a local dairy doing deliveries. At least I know up front that he will be able to cover his rent, but we shall see where this adventure leads us.

Oh and I spoke to the landlady. She says she won't sell the house out from under us, thatshe willlet us know "well in advance." I'm sure that could mean anything. I'm really afraid this is gonna be bad, but I'm going to keep my cool about it. I think moving out of this place and getting something else would be nice, but COME ON you can't beat $175 a month. And God knows, we need it be cheap while I'm still in school.

The dogs, Yaya and Sunny, are getting along much better recently. They are almost playing with each other! Right now, they are kind of stuck on the playing around each other phase. Yaya I think has gotten used to Sunny barking alot when she's excited. At first Yaya's ears would just go straight back, and her tail would drop, and she'd look at me like "WHY IS SHE BARKING?!?!?" She does that less now, and Sunny doesn't attack Yaya when she growls while playing. She will still sort of nip at her, but not hurt her. They haven't figured out how to share toys yet though. That one I think will take a while. Maybe I could get them to play tug of war with a long rope. It's worth a try.

I work and go to school tomorrow and Tuesday.
I should be off Wednesday, but I dont know for sure yet.

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Aaliyah - More Than a Woman

this is what you get

This week has been absolutely horrible. But I'm keeping a positive attitude about it. I think overall I've managed to keep my head on tight. Well, except Thursday night, which you will read about below. I think that it was like the straw that broke the camel's back on that particular day, mainly because did it to myself by locking my keys IN my car. So as the event below unfolded, I slowly was overtaken by the urge to throw something and break it.

This letter to my math teacher began as a simple explanation, and turned into a rant. I probably shouldn't have sent it, but I didnt really think about it clearly at the time. My mind was clouded by lack of sleep and absolute anger at missing class for all of it. And I'm not rewriting it right now, I'm still too upset. And I have homework to do so learn to live with it. It could have been alot worse.

I'm sure you get excuse filled emails like this from students all the time who are trying to get sympathy for missed class. This is not my intention. The other day was ridiculous for me, and I apologize that it interrupted your class. When I locked the keys in the car, I immediately went to the front desk and called my fiance (who was home waiting on the AC repairman) so he could find a locksmith to come out there to the college.

I have had bad luck getting locksmiths to come out at 8:30 pm, and I NEEDED this car for the double that I worked the next day. The locksmith people told him it would be about 15-20 minutes, and that I should wait outside for the driver. So I waited a little over a half an hour before calling my fiance to find out what was going on. He called back to the front desk, and told me that it would be another 15 minutes; that the guy got into some trouble on the way. I worried about missing the test we might take that night, but I went outside to wait. ANOTHER 30 minutes go by and I'm starting to get upset.

I call my fiance, and he doesn't answer his cell or the house phone for about 20 minutes, and when I do finally get a hold of him, he says that the repair guy showed up to fix our AC unit. Well, at least Ill have a cool house to come home to tonight. I am still pretty upset about the locksmith not showing up, so I ask for the number myself so that I can call them. When I do, I find out that they dont even know where the driver is; that he hasnt answered his cell for over a half an hour. So I ask if they can supply another driver. They say yes, and that they will call me back in a few minutes to let me know when he will be there. So I sit by the phone at the front desk, and no call. At this point I am very upset that I have missed so much class, and that was when I came back in and told you to mark me down as absent. I was going to call another locksmith service. My fiance ended up coming down to the school to help me take care of this. By the time that we got a locksmith to open the car, class was almost over. I am SO sorry about all this. I simply cannot afford to lose my job.

That same day, I had a conversation with my landlady about the possiblity of her selling our house out from under us. Our lease has expired and she has pulled every trick in the book to keep from re-leasing with us. She told me in that conversation that she was just tired of keeping up with so many homes, and that ours would be among those to go. On what I make, I worry alot about making ends meet. It is the real reason behind me going back to school.

My real reason for writing you was to find out what homework you gave on Thursday night. This is the first class I've ever missed so I was a little unprepared for contacting a classmate. I'd really appreciate it.

Thanks,
Jennifer

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another word of the day

adjuvant \AJ-uh-vuhnt\,

adjective:

1. Serving to help or assist; auxiliary.
2. Assisting in the prevention, amelioration, or cure of disease.

noun:

1. A person or thing that aids or helps.
2. Anything that aids in removing or preventing a disease, esp. a substance added to a prescription to aid the effect of the main ingredient.

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