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Let me count the ways in which I have been spending my time since I posted last. I'm "done" with school, meaning I'm not going back to that god forsaken place again, and I am waiting to take my state exam after I come back from a nice vacation to Florida with my mother, brother, aunt and uncle, and my grandparents. (We are renting a condo on the beach!!!) I feel like I've deserved it after two straight years of school.

I have uploaded over 225 items for sale on my jewelry page, and have made several nice sales in the last few weeks. There are WAY too many pictures at this point to upload any of them here, you will simply have to go to my page and see them for yourself. If you do not keep up with me on Facebook, then you have been missing out on lots of other pictures and such. You should find me there, I am listed as Jennifer M. Russell. It seems like no one uses blogs in my little circle, so I am there more often than not rather than posting here. However, I am trying to make a concerted effort to keep posting here, despite the convenience of Facebook. I mean, the advertising there is so much easier and since I have focused, in my downtime, on the website sales my blog here has suffered.

Ok so let's see. Dad moved out of MS and moved up to Nashville to be close to my uncle Jim and aunt Wanda. My brother started Radiology school this year and started working at a new prison in FL as a guard. (I worry about him alot) Aaron and I are doing fine as usual, and is Yaya. Aaron's and Richard's boss has offered me a job working in the office doing bookkeeping and answering the phones, which I probably will take, at least until I can get certified and get a job in a pharmacy somewhere. I have also been watching BLEACH. Oh man, that's a great anime. (Hence the video at the beginning. It is the title somg for the second season. LOVE IT!!!) Besides all of that, not much changes around here. Well not right now anyways. As usual I'm up way too late on a day when I have to work. And YES I'm still at McAlister's. God I hate that place. I hope this other job comes through for me. I need a change.

Well, screw it I'm off to bed for now. Just wanted to come in and update a little. G'nite everyone! (noone reads this mess lol)

OH and PS:

YES I know the words to the song!!!
(well most of them anyways)

Ienai itami kanashimi de kizu tsuita kimi yo

Kesenai kako mo seoi atte ikou

ikiro koto wo nage dasanai de

WOOOOOOOOOO

lol  <3

paper beads and more

I didnt realize how long it had been since I posted last. I AM SLACKIN. lol Well, it has been a pretty insane month, but I'm excited about the new term starting up in a week. It will be my LAST TERM hopefully. If I don't screw it up. lol I only have one class scheduled; it is a refresher for the state board exam, and it will be pretty tough.

On a much lighter note, I have been making TONS of stuff! Mostly paper beads made from colorful glossy ads in magazines, or from newpaper articles. The cool part is, you can still see alot of the letters and words from the articles they were written from. Some of the beads I made the other night say "debt-ceiling" on them. I totally didn't plan it that way. It made me laugh! 

Here's all my supplies all ready to make some pretty beads!

Here's some of the finished beads on their little drying pedestal.

This is a variety of beads I've made over the last two nights.

I will be making more of them soon. I need some more general colors like green, and black and brown. I will also post pics soon of some of the bracelets I've made from these. I want to make a cool necklace out of the newspaper ones for myself! :p

Ok I have to open in the morning, so I am off to bed!

Have a great night!

<3

Venture MANIA and regrets GALORE

(this is my favorite pulp song and and again reminds me 
of someone who knew me better than I knew myself.)

Steroid Maximus_Venture Bros Medley from JG Thirlwell on Vimeo.

Have I mentioned lately how much I love The Venture Brothers? I finally got season 4.2 and watched it for the second time. There was more content in the DVD version that what I saw on the website when it came out. Little tidbits of the story I either didn't catch or simply weren't there the first time I watched it. I am OVERJOYED at the awesomeness of it all. Why can't I live in that universe? Why am I stuck in this sucky universe? I think I'd make an awesome Super Scientist. And Haley would so be my Super Villain arch nemesis. I'd marry Gary and make him a happy man. After the ending to season 4.2 I feel so bad for him, I just want to hold him and cuddle him till he forgot all about that evil woman, Dr. Mrs. The Monarch. There are so many things to talk about, and I am too inebriated to even speak on them all. I love Shorleave and Al. I love Brock and Mol. I love Orpheus and Triana. I especially love Dean and Hank. I really do love them all. It is definitively my favorite show of all time! Kudos to the men who created it. You have made my life a better place to be. If you have not watched The Venture Borthers, PLEASE clal me, and we can watch them. I have all seasons up to date, and am ALWAYS willing to watch them again... over and over and over. BEST. SHOW. EVAR. PERIOD.

I am up again way too late again. I will admit that I have been drinking tonight. That is not the reason I feel this way. It simply makes it easier to admit to the things I am saying lol. I am listening to the Stereogum mix as usual. As with my tastes in music lately, I find that I am not like other people around me. Even Aaron does not share my tastes in shows, or music, or life in general sometimes. I need someone to share these things with. Haley likes The Venture Brothers, so we still have that major item in my life in common, but I think we steadily grow apart, day by day. It is something I think about alot. I wonder sometimes, if I am closing myself off to others. If maybe it is me how is out of whack with those around me. Perhaps I focus too much on the differences we have, and not enough on the things we do have in common. All I know is that I can't stand the idea of us not having that connection we always had as teens. I want to be closer to the people around me, the people I love, but it is hard when we are physically so far apart. When schedules do not allow for that kind of regular contact. Hell, I live with Aaron and I feel like we barely get enough time to be actively involved in each others interests and emotions. I FEEL too much, and I think too much. I need to think less and BE more. Perhaps it will be easier when I am working a regular schedule and not focused on school so much. I find that most of the day is taken up by work, and school, and homework, and studying, and life's routines, and me worrying about little things I cannot affect at this point in my life. Maybe I am just kidding myself that moving away will fix everything I think is broken in my life. Starting over will only bring more problems for me to "fix." I want to be there more for my family, and especially for my grandparents. The last time I was there at their house, my grandfather said something to the affect of he was surprised I even showed up. I'm not sure he knows how much those kinds of comments affect me. I'm finally getting my collective "shit" together, and I can't be there like I want to be. I cannot wait till I graduate. At least then I can have more focus on things that matter to me via a regular schedule that I can manage my life easier with. I know I talk and talk and talk a lot of crap. I need to deliver, and fast, before I lose all of the things that really matter to me. I just hope those I love are willing to compromise with me and FOR me as I am for them, whether they see that or not.

On a much lighter note, I created a CYBER ME to talk to. I am still in the process of programming her to be more like me. She Is Jenny V2 and she is located at the bottom of my blog, here on this page. Talk to her, I'm sure she is just as lonely as I am.

Goodnight bloggers.

<3

gaining speed... soon to be at starburst

I met with the pharmacist in charge of my internship today. She seems like a very sweet lady. When I got there this morning though, they acted surprised to see me. Apparently they have had some problems with past interns, and were told they wouldn't be getting any more. Then I show up at their doorstep, all giddy and smiles. When they finally got the ok for me to be there, I had to take the Federal HIPPA test, and that took a while to complete. OF COURSE I passed with flying colors. lol A 5 yr old could pass that. They drill it into your head over and over, and then ask you the same questions a million times. We talked about a schedule for the whole thing, and I left soon afterwards so I could rush to work. It was a short shift, but I am  exhausted tonight. I got up really early today.

I also spent a good amount of time working on some jewelry storage issues that I am having. If anyone knows anyone that might be able to build me a large jewelry tree, or rack for necklaces and bracelets, PLEASE let me know. I have no carpentry skills whatsoever, and I am running out of room!!! I do not want to invest in even more cork boards, or peg hook boards, I am spread out enough across the small amount of storage space I do have as it is. I need to build UP not out. lol

I want this, but this is nice too, but I would need it to hold many more than 20.
I NEED POWER TOOLS!!!!!

I have to sleep now, I have a dentist appt in the morning, then off to school.

Gnite peoples.

<3

ZOMG Im finally done uploading

(An oldie but a goodie. This song always makes me want to cry.
It reminds me of my father)

I have been uploading images to River Rock Jewelry since about 7pm tonight. IT IS NOW AFTER MIDNIGHT. That's a lot of pictures! I currently have 155 items for sale on my site!!! This makes me very happy! Also that's only about HALF of the items I have to sell. lol I have a lot more to take images of and upload to the site. Here is a crappy webcam picture of the MESS of items I have in boxes in the floor next to my desk.

 I will never be done lol

I should know about my school internship schedule by Monday, hopefully. I do have tomorrow to look forward to though. Haley, my mother, and I are all going out downtown to Bluefin tomorrow night for dinner. We have a reservation at 7pm in one of the private dining rooms. Its gonna be so awesome. They have the best sushi in Memphis. I also really like their mussels. I'm super excited!

TIME LAPSE

So I started writing this post about an hour ago, and then my roommate Leslie came in and we started talking about things, and I got distracted. It is now 1:32 am, and I feel like she and I just connected. We talked about school, and finding a better path in our lives, and how we plan on getting there. I know she and I have never been SUPER close, but I feel like we have many things in common despite the big gaps in differences we have. I care alot about Leslie, and I want her to be happy in life. I hope she finds what she is looking for.

I started this day exhausted and down. I end it upbeat and optimistic about life. 

Have a great night everyone!

<3

the time has come

I have recently been gearing up to start my internships, and this has meant putting a lot of things on hold, the jewelry sales being one of many. I have pumped out as many new peices as possible, and will continue to make a few here and there, but I will not be accepting any custom orders after the 12th of March. I will also say that I have recently acquired a mother load of vintage beads. I would suggest that you contact me soon, and come out to my house asap, to pick out the best and prettiest of these beads while you can. Ive got people claiming stuff left and right.

Since things have been winding up, the stress level has been going up as well. I am using exercise as an outlet, and it seems to be helping, but it has put a strain on my relationships with others as of late. I am not around as much as I would like to be, and I feel like I am missing out on some pretty important moments. I just keep telling myself that when this is all over, I will be making more of those moments. Since all of my health issues, I simply feel drained. I laid down today with a minor headache and passed out for like 3 hours. Aaron tried to get me up several times, and even after the nap, I'm still exhausted. Time slips away and before I know it the week is already over, and I start over to do it all again.

I made a great dinner tonight too, despite the headache. Fried pork Schnitzel with home made gravy, green beans and cornbread. M M M! It was freaking awesome.

Ok I'm off to watch something before bed.

Gnite darlings!

<3

Much to do about nothing... and everything!!!

FINALS ARE DONE FOR THE TERM!

Thank you Lord.

I did pretty well actually. In my math class I got a 100, and in my pharm 2 class I got a 97. So overall, I kicked this term's butt! lol I'm not sure if it's totally official (mostly because all grades had not come in at the point I found this out) that I'm at the top of the class now, with a big fat 3.79 GPA! But now is not the time to relax and enjoy my little victory. March 21st will be the first day of my retail internship, so I guess I get a little while to play, but then I have to get my game face on. Chris tells me not to worry. I'll be at CVS pharmacy and he says the people are very nice there and that I shouldn't be nervous, but I totally am lol. It's a big step, and a fast one at that. We have to cover a lot of material in 120 hours of free work. Then I get to do it all over again in a hospital internship. lol I joke, but I am really excited to get started though. I want to start work as soon as I can.

That head of my department in school also told me that she thinks I should go ahead and take the state certification test. She thinks I am ready, and that I should give it a shot. I on the other hand am not quite so sure. My weakest point is knowing generics and brands. I'm good at the how and why of drugs, I'm horrible with straight memorization of words. It's why I'm so bad with names. Slow recall skills. Hopefully the lab pc will like me and tell me what I need to know. And there's always the handy dandy book. lol I think I will get through at least one of these internships before I push myself any harder.

We joined a new guild in lotro. They are called Bastion of Light.  They are basically ACT, but Tolkein style. hah Aaron is really into it, I've only really gotten to know the guild leader and his right hand woman. She is my age, he is slightly older. Both are very nice and talk alot, like me!!! I really like them, and hope this is something that lasts. Aaron is just so much happier, I want it to be a great experience for him, like ACT was for me. Star is another person I wish this for. I guess she always saw them as MY guild, she didn't get into it. And I'm afraid she thinks that about this too. Aaron's guild. I just want it to be our guild. I want her to have fun again.

So alot has happened in the last month. I got my teeth fixed first. I already talked about all of that before. I still have discomfort when I attempt to eat anything. No pain anymore though, and that's a serious blessing. My sinuses went haywire through this whole experience. I had the worst headache I've ever had for literally 5 freaking days after the surgery. And to top it all off, right after I was done with the antibiotic treatment I got a bad head cold, possibly from my roommates or my mother. More headaches ensued, and I was pissy for over two weeks. I'm sure Aaron wanted to strangle me at several points. I'm still getting over this one, it really took a toll on my body. Vitamins and lots of water are my only medications right now.

Mom was actually in town because my aunt Barbara passed away in late January. It was a very beautiful and touching funeral. I actually had prepared a funny little speech, but I didn't have a chance to say it. I wrote it mostly for my family, so they could remember the good times with my aunt Barbara. This whole experience was horrible for my family. She had been battling cancer for a long time, and things turned for the worse very suddenly. She was here one week, and then the next she was gone. But all she ever wanted for us was to be happy. She told me that about a month or so before she died. She didn't want us to be sad or feel sorry for her. She wanted us to grasp the good things in our lives and cherish them. She wanted us to be closer as a family, and to love and be there for one another. She was such a great person, and I will miss the hell out of her.

I am off tomorrow, but I have alot to do! I have like 10 custom jewelry orders to fill. I've already started a few, but haven't finished any because I'm not satisfied with them yet. haha I also need to fix my work pants. They are falling apart, and I'm cheap so I refuse to buy another pair. I have to get all of the new pics off of Star's camera so I can upload all of the new items! I have so much pretty glass pieces to show!

But for now, I am off to bed. Gnite sweet peoples.

<3

my poor head

I found this song in a movie that I watched tonight called Wristcutters. It was pretty funny. I needed that laugh, it was a rough day. Today gave me a nagging headache all day. I took a sample box to school tonight of new items, and only made one sale. I guess it was a bad night for it. I'd stay and talk more but I have to work in the morning and try to make it to the school afterward to fill out financial paperwork before my financial adviser leaves, so I must sleep.

<3

This is a final rough draft, but here it is

First lets set the mood.
It's kind of a long paper...





These songs and more much like them were very uplifting and easy to write to. YES I wrote this whole paper to Peter Cetera and Amy Grant, and NO I don't wanna hear one word about it. To write this paper, I really had to go WAY back to connect to what I needed to. So :p

This paper was entitled, "What motivates me to be an ethical person?"

I recently watched a documentary called “Forgiving Dr. Mengele” that tells the story of a woman named Eva Kor, who is a Holocaust survivor. A few years ago she gave a speech at Auschwitz, the Nazi concentration camp where she was held as a child, and she forgave the Nazis who experimented on her and murdered her family. She told people that it was her way of healing her own emotional scars. Many people were angered by this statement. Among those were other Holocaust survivors, some of whom were also held at Auschwitz. A few of them were quoted as saying that they could never forgive the Nazis for what they had done. Despite a fire bombing at the Holocaust Museum that she founded and operates, and despite all of the opposition that she faces from heated challenges to her personal beliefs, Eva has remained determined to help people understand what it is to forgive. She once told a group of students at a lecture, “Forgiveness, to me, means that whatever was done to me; it is no longer causing me such pain that I cannot be the person that I want to be.” Eva strongly believes that we should never cut ourselves off from or forget the past, but learn from it, and not allow it to control our destinies. There have been events in our historical past as a species, some even in our own lifetime, that have been so horrendous that words cannot equate the depth of sorrow that we feel. This woman went through one of those experiences, and she survived. She didn't just survive, she became a beacon of light in a darkness of hate and despair, and that is something to bring attention to.

I wanted to tell this story so that I might be able to explain, in a much shorter and less personally invasive way, why I believe that forgiveness can be a way to salvation, and to what Eva calls personal freedom. The things that are in my past do not compare to what Mrs. Kor has been through, but her message of empowerment of one's own life was something to which I could relate. Talking about everything, in therapy or with loved ones, really helped me to face the things in my life that I had denied for so long. Just being able to talk with someone rationally and about where I was mentally and emotionally at that moment in my life helped me to see that you cannot carry pain around with you for the rest of your life. It forms and dictates you in ways you can not see from the inside of that situation looking out. Understanding things from different angles slowly over time formulated within me a overwhelming desire to help other people to understand this as well.

I was not always so “helpful and insightful”. To be completely frank, I was a selfish brat. I thought that life and everything in it should revolve around me and what I wanted. To me, it was completely unfair that life wasn't fair. I wanted things to be easy and convenient, and I didn't want to work or strive for anything. If life wasn't going to hand it to me, I was just going to take it, and I didn't think of anyone but me and my “friends”. I had a Non-Consequentialist point of view and what really hits me now, when I look back at my frame of mind then, is that I knew better. Every time I fought with someone, every time I stole something, every time I got high, I knew what I was doing was wrong. Worse still, I knew why it was wrong, and I didn't care. I was so angry at my father, my mother, my grandparents, and the world, that I was to the point of self-destruction. I wanted to just zone out and pretend that all of it didn't exist. I wanted to pretend that my problems were worse than everyone else's problems, so my behavior was justified to me in that way. There were fights between me and my mother and grandparents that I regret, and I wish I could take back the hurt that I caused, but I'm glad that I can see all of this now with a clear mind. I learned a lot from it, and because of all of this, I have taken on a strong consequentialist view of life, especially when it comes to the issues of morality between myself and people that I love. Now, the main point that I take from this experience is forgiveness. Not just for the people in your life that have wronged or hurt you, but forgiveness for yourself as well.

Don't get me wrong, I don't think that my approach will work for everyone. As the documentary also points out, someone who is in the midst of struggle and fighting for their life may not be able to or is arguably incapable of forgiving the wrong-doer. It was only after much time had passed that I was able to even face my demons, let alone come to some kind of workable terms with them. Forgiveness for me is not about absolving the person of the wrong, it is about empowering yourself to overcome it, and not allowing it to shape you and your life. You choose what kind of life you lead, every moment of your life. My ability to rise above what I had felt was a life shattering past caused my attitude and perspective to change instantly and allowed me to feel more in control of myself and my path.

That frame of mind reminds me of the parting words of another video I watched recently from a website called T.E.D. Their motto, “Ideas Worth Sharing,” explains their motivation to provide speakers and speeches that challenge the mind to see things from a different perspective. In the video I spoke of, a neuroscientist by the name of Jill Bolte Taylor speaks about our capacity to choose how we live our lives. One morning she wakes to discover that she has a vastly different frame of mind and perspective on the world and herself than she did when she went to sleep. During the night, a cerebral stroke caused a large hemorrhage in the left side of her brain, and she explains how this physical change led to the change in her perception. She talks about how it feels to think while being cut off from the left side of the brain. If you don't already know, and I'm sure many of the medical students do, the right side of the brain is what sees, collects and stores everything ever shown to us. It takes in and records the collage of sensory input that we feel, smell, see, taste, and hear about everything around us, all of the time. It thinks only about the right here and right now of every moment. It helps us to feel “connected” to everything around us, and see the beauty in all things. The left side of the brain is a very different place. It is logical and meticulous; finding the hundreds of details in the collage of our lives, categorizing them in association to everything we've ever known, and then projecting the infinity of possibilities before us. Mrs. Taylor asks the crowd at one point in the speech if they can imagine what it would be like to lose all of your emotional baggage all at once. She goes on to describe the experience of being cut off from her left brain chatter as “nirvana,” and uses the story to try and help people understand that it doesn't take a stroke to change your life. Every moment of every day, you choose how you face the world. Do you choose to feel connected to all of us as a people, finding the beauty in all things, and living in the moment? Or do you choose to live every day of your life as a complete individual, disconnected from the whole and alone in your everyday life? Mrs. Taylor supposes to the audience that if we spent more time in the collective thoughts of our right brain, that we might project that peace out into the world. I believe that she may be right about that.

In relation to that, another idea that I wanted to talk about separately was the moral theory Relativism. I can sit all day and talk about what I do, or would do in a situation, but really how can I relate my beliefs to any and every situation or person? My answer to that is: you simply can not. I think that every situation is relative to the people in it or the things that influence it. Think about it, there are over 6.5 Billion people on this planet right now. That staggering number of people alone gives birth to an incalculable number of possible negative situations and an infinite number of reactions to those situations. There is just no way we can all agree. In summary, I feel that though I may preach my form of spiritual gospel, I do not believe it could work for everyone. I understand that people, countries, cultures, and minds are not and never will be the same.

In my life, I can say that every decision I made was based upon my frame of mind at that moment, and that speaks volumes to me. I think I have always been a strong practitioner of Relativism. I do not normally think in absolutes. It was very hard for me as a young person to attach in any way to the idea of Absolutism, though I was raised with people around me with that frame of mind. My grandfather is definitely a practitioner of Absolutism. He has very definitive ideas of how life should be, and I think those ideas eventually helped me to be rigid about the things I do feel strongly about. I do try to maintain an open mind about perspective. Literally putting yourself into someone else's shoes is impossible, and metaphorically, it is still very hard to imagine exactly how they feel. Your perspective can be individually unique and that is why we must work that much harder to relate to each other. I feel like the more I learn and understand about why we are the way we are, then we can continue to learn from it and our actions, and become better people, a better society and hopefully in the long run a really positive force upon this planet.

I have, like everyone else, horrible days in which I have to really work to keep my attitude and instincts in check. It really is not easy, by any stretch of the imagination, but I want to be a good person because I feel that by doing so, I am doing my individual part in the whole of creation. I feel that I am doing what I was put here to do. I may not know why, but just the feeling I get from helping someone, or doing what is right and just is enough for me. As we all know, what is right or just is not usually the easy thing to do. Therefore, it takes real determination to make a positive change and a constant focus on how I speak, present myself, and how I react to situations to be able to stay one step ahead of negative instincts. However, I have insurmountable faith in myself, and in the human race for us to come out of all of this modern chaos to the other end, smarter and more prepared for what I believe are the innate responsibilities that we have to this world, and to ourselves to be better and to do what we have in our potential to do.

I hope that all of this in and out really gave you a better perspective on what motivates and drives me to become better than I am, every day of my life. Please don't take my word on everything else. Please go to the websites I mentioned and watch the videos for yourselves. Take what you can or need to from them, and if anyone needs the web addresses, I can get them for you.

PLEASE let me know what you think!!!

If you are interested in the videos i talk about in the paper, one of them is in the post below this one. The other you might have to rent or purchase to watch it. Thank you again Netflix.com!

NOTE: This paper is the expressed property of Jennifer Russell, and is not to be used for ANY purpose without written permission from the author (that's me! don't make me sue you!!!)
For more info please email me at: arahslan@yahoo.com

the heat is on

This song still rocks, after all of these years. Weird freakin video though, I will admit that. Just don't watch the video, and turn the song up loud. Its not even the whole song. OH well, try to enjoy it anyways. I know I do!



I'm up too late again. Just finished reviewing Chemistry homework before it tries to escape my brain. So i decided to play my little facebook games. MAN are those things addictive.

It's been a while, so I can try to sum up. On the 30th we are going to Aaron's family reunion in Hot Springs. IM SO NERVOUS lol His family is really nice, but I'm still nervous.

I've been really tied up in school this semester. Chem is kicking my ass. I'm taking tutoring for this one. So I haven't played Lotro alot. I did get some Summer Fest action though.



I'm having surgery on my mouth when I get back from the reunion. It's gonna suck, but I'll feel so much better. I'm gonna try to do this between the terms during my break, so I wont be around then either. lol

IT never stops.

study break at almost 3am

Now playing on JennyRadio:
Ben Harper - God Fearing Man



I cried the first time I heard this song. It's power overwhelms me every time I listen to it. I can agree that his guitar playing is something that takes getting used to if you're not used to that style (I grew up on the blues), but I think he is absolutely amazing. Some songs are meant to play sloppy, and raw, and totally by emotional whim. Those are the ones that are played straight from the heart. And look, this version has slightly screwy audio. Go find the real 11 and a half minute song. Much better sound on my awesome headphones too.

I went in to work today, and they didn't need me, so I went to see Aaron at work, and we went out for lunch. Since he works off of Crump Blvd, on the way home I stopped by the old historic Elmwood Cemetery. To quote a website I found, it is "not only a cemetery, but an arboretum and bird sanctuary, and a home to one of the major preserves of old forest growth left in the developed metropolis of modern Memphis." I thought to myself as I left, "I wanna come back and take an audio tour when I have more time." So I get home tonight and check my email, and BAM! Groupon has a local Memphis e-coupon for 50% off the cost of a ticket for an audio tour for Elmwood Cemetery! FREAKY!!! It's fate! I'm totally taking Haley. She likes grave rubbings.

I spent over 4 hours tonight reading 4 chapters on Chemistry. I HATE THIS CLASS ALREADY. Not only will we cover 30 chapters in 10 weeks, but there are still two other classes. THANK GOD I have Ms. Davis for Ethics. I love that woman.

I was so drained tonight when I got home, and I was very happy to see a dvd sitting on my desk that I rented from Netflix (GET OUT!) haha It's an animated flick by Tim Burton called "9" and it was fantastic. I was very impressed, and surprised that I hadn't heard of it before. For such a (color-wise) dark movie, they made every scene awe-inspiring, and beautiful. It's a post-apocalyptic story about foregoing what is easy and convient to do, and doing what is right and just. It's rated pg-13, but I thought it would appeal toward an older crowd than strictly children. Hell, I even watched the making of, and that was pretty cool too. Apparently the guy who made this originally made the short film it's based on. It was his thesis for film school, and the guy even got an academy nomination for it. Anyways, totally worth a watch.

I am also leaving up Soulseek for anyone who wants to use it. My user name is arahslan, of course. lol Haley wants to download some music from me so it will be up indefinitely. If you don't know what the hell I'm talking about, go HERE.

If anyone happens to know a lot about Chemistry, then meet me and like 4 other people at Mazzio's Pizza on Navy Road in Millington at noon on Friday. I'm SO not kidding. Ok well, I'm off to go find the specific heat of aluminum, so I'll see you later.

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I pretty much slept all day. lol Which is fine with me, it was my day off, and I needed it. I did have a dream last night though, that we lived in Alaska. It was beautiful there. So this morning, I have been thinking alot about the future. I graduate in about a year, and after I do, we have to make a decision on where we are gonna go. Stay in Memphis and work for a while, or move somewhere. Honestly, I want the fuck out of Memphis, for a while at least. I'd like to move to St. Louis. That way we aren't too far away for our families, but we will be too far away for the lazy annoying people to come visit. haha I'm horrible.

I've been watching InvaderZim and he's rubbing off on me. DISGUSTING HUMANS!!!

I gotta go shower for Ethics class tonight.

A thought.

Recently, someone pointed out to me that in every post that I make, the music for that post is always at the bottom. It was also pointed out that if I put it at the top, that people would get to "experience a day in the life of a Jenny the right way." I tend to agree. So here we go.

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Thank you everyone all of the birthday wishes. It made me feel really good to know that my friends are still behind me. I'm one of those people who needs to hear it from time to time. Tomorrow the new semester starts and I'm taking all of what's happened in the last few years as a good omen to continue on my path to a better future. Money as usual is tight, so Aaron and I didn't do anything extravagant for my birthday like we had planned. I had wanted to go to BlueFin downtown for dinner, but it is expensive. So we just closeted ourselves away from the world, and spent the day together. He and I are always so tired when we get home, we don't always get to take advantage of the hour or few that we do get to see each other a day. My birthday was a different story. I didn't get out of the bed until almost noon. lol It was nice. Don't I look relaxed?

I did a little shopping with Michelle on Saturday, and i got the cutest sleeveless sundress, and 3 pairs of flip flops for like 6 bucks. WOO flip flops! Then yesterday I'm on my wayhome from work and I see that the Rite Aid close to McAlister's is closing and they have the ENTIRE store at 50% off!!! SO I wander in there and find some REAL deals. I won't go into detail, but I will say that I love nail polish! and at 50 cents a bottle, I stocked up!


Im also off today! We haven't been getting alot of hours, and Ive been taking FULL advantage of the situation. My camera is old and dying from the many times I've injured it by dropping it on the ground. But it does still take awesome pictures. Here's one of the rain yesterday off my back porch.

Yes I know my yard looks like a small forest.

I also wanted to share some of the pics I took from the last day of class last semester.
I love all of these people!

Btw, you gotta LOVE Christina's face in the back. I love that girl.

Blue Sunday

I'm taking a break from my Bio206 class so I can say hi to all you wonderful readers!!!

Aaron and I just had a long discussion about these books he's been reading, The Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice. I read them a long time ago, and he keeps asking me questions that I can't answer because I'd be giving away spoilers haha If you can handle her crazy writing style, they are definitely worth a read. He seems to like them. Who could deny Lestat? lol

We had a big storm recnty that dumped alot of water on the city. Before it happened I filmed this short video of the crazy lightning outside of my house that night.



I have been listening to alot of music tonight while I study for my final. Every heard of a movie called Hedwig and the Angry Inch? I watched it instantly on Netflix. lol Go rent it in all it's cross dressing glory. GREAT soundtrack too. I love the voice. Example:



Wait.. right around 44 seconds in... is that a bald Wayne Brady? lol

I'm off to study a bit more. And listen to more music. From movies I watched on Netflix.

this is amazing

Leslie showed me this earlier today



The kid is TWELVE. I really am not into Lady Gaga very much, and I sorta liked her version of this song, but the way this kid does it, its almost a totally different song. A very beautiful song.

Well I have done one final, and still have two to take. After May the 22nd this term is over. I start back to my next term like a week later(lol) but I'm still pumped. This term I took Accounting 1, a human disease class, and psychology. I did well in all of them, but I don't think I'll make straight A's this time. Accounting kicked my ass this term. I had SO much homework to do, and I didn't turn everything in. I know,I know... I'M TIRED. I don't have to KILL myself to make the Dean's list EVERY semester. Next term I'm taking an ethics class, Environmental science, and Chemistry. If I can test out of the one Algebra class I have left to take, then ALL of my General Education classes are done, and all I have left is the actual Pharmacology classes and my 2 internships. I'm projected to graduate in May of next year, so ONE year left!!!

I gotta study. Ill be back later maybe. lol

Random Images GALORE!

Ok so recently, I've admitted to a little bit of slacking. I have also been taking lots of pictures!
Like these that I just took right now!

One night we were playing with Sonny and she was so excited so wouldn't sit still for the pictures, and ended up looking like a tribble in this one.
I had to post this one of Aaron passed out in the chair.
I think he's adorable.
It actually is quite a popular chair.
Here is one of my dean's list certificates.
Here's all of my books for the last few terms.
Aaron also got me a music theory book so I can finally learn sheet music!
Even still we stick to our ghetto/redneck ways.
Good example : my new porch light
/sigh
Someone please come rewire my house for me.
But at least we keep a good sense of humor about it all!
Aaron's cell phone is SO much cooler than mine.
lol

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(I can't help it, I love to dance)

well Im catching up a little

Since I missed like a whole 2 months, Im gonna go backwards in time a little to show you what you missed. One of those being the cutest star wars toys IVE EVER SEEN.

I saw alot of valentines this year but this was by far my favorite



Aaron also found this image of the human body's systems done subway style. I thought it was neat.



For all of you crybabies who say you cannot accept that the world we live in doesnt have flying cars, eat this:



Science has been kicking so much ass this year so far, and medical science is not exception:

Click ME to see how

And did you know that the Chilean earthquake might have shortened the days on our planet?

Click ME to see how

We also learn ALOT from the world around us. Wasps might help us to combat one of the worst bacterias out there.

Click on me to see the story (those other two links suck by the way and I ROCK)

and finally

...And so must I. Today I have my first psychology class. Im kinda excited.

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I only have a second...

I will admit, part of my lack of writing anything at all is just plain laziness. Another part was this last semester's classes. Thank goodness its over, and I get two weeks off. I really need it this time. Work has picked back up as well, so little of my free time is spent on anything other than my fiance and the
all-consuming,
all-encompassing
LOTRO
lol

I must apologize to Ryan, I hadn't been to blogger in a couple of months. We need to catch up some! I work a double tomorrow. Friday after work, I have to take my car into the dealership to get two Honda recalls on my car fixed. Airbag defect. YAY.
But I AM off on Saturday! Good YAY!!! haha

:p

Here, listen to this and try not to be freaked out by how much makeup she can hold up with just her head. Ah, don't pick on her, she's having fun.

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I'm in trouble now...

Well, Haley finally did it. She dragged me to LOTRO about a week ago, I made a female human Minstrel (I named her Ahryslan of course) and I've had to sorta play alone at first so I could get out of the starter area and be somewhere that Haley could help me, and we could hang out. See now, I thought that I wouldn't enjoy this game as much as SWG so I had pretty much convinced myself that I shouldn't take time away from school to play it. Prolly a good decision right? Well tonight I'm roaming around West Bree (for all the LOTRO players) and I came across this player group of BANDMATES! As a minstrel I can play music, and I'd been having fun out in the middle of nowhere in the woods while resting, picking out Three Blind Mice or something silly, and here in front of me is a BAND playing songs from The Beatles, Guns and Roses, Metallica, Led Zeppelin, Dave Matthews, Queen, and even orchestral soundtrack pieces from the movie Halloween and Pirates of the Caribbean. You have to understand, you can literally pick notes as if you're playing the instrument. I always used to say that I wished they'd made it that way in Galaxies. They just use MIDI format so it isn't the greatest sound, but its just NEAT. YES I am amused easily! So now I'm HOOKED. This is a mystery that I must unravel. But I can't right now, I have to open at work in the morning, and I'm tired as hell.

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short and simple

I got my hair cut yesterday. Short and simple, just the way I like it. Along with a silly face.

Also been poking around the internet for new music when Ive had a chance and stumbled across this. It's electro-opera, so be warned, but i find it very beautiful.

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The Knife with Mt. Sims and Planningtorock - Colouring of Pigeons



Im off to get ready for school. We have to make up a MED 104 class that we missed on new year's day. OH JOY.