long day

(This reminds me of someone I used to know better than myself)

We spent most of yesterday night at the hospital with Aaron's dad. He had an inguinal hernia that was massive, and creating a lot of pain for him. They rushed him into emergency surgery last night, and when we originally talked about the repercussions of it with the doctor, things didn't sound too good. They said it was possible that part of his bowel or his colon might have come out and there might be a lot of tissue loss or even tissue death. The surgeon was very blunt and short with John, and I didn't like him very much. He seemed bothered that he might have to stay late and save John's life. I hoped that his pushy arrogance belied his genius in the operation room, and that seemed to be the case. They took him into surgery about 10:30 pm last night. In a little over an hour he was out, and doing fantastically. They said no organs had protruded the hole, and that all of his tissues seemed to be intact, despite the fact that this possibly happened a few days ago, and John didn't let anyone know about it until the pain was so intense he couldn't take it anymore. He is doing so well in fact that they just let him out of the hospital to go home about an hour ago. He is still in a lot of pain, but they have him on some good meds, so he should heal up pretty well. We were really worried about his blood pressure through the whole thing. Massive pain like he experienced is enough to shoot up anyone's adrenaline and blood pressure, but he did really well. They did have to be extra careful during surgery because John is on Plavix which is a blood thinner. They said they gave him platelets to counteract the medication and bleeding wasn't a real problem.

I'm so releived that he did so well. He and Aaron don't show alot of emotion, and I know that Aaron was in knots over his dad being back in the hospital in such an awful condition. Seeing his dad in that much pain was overwhelming for him. He had to watch his mother go through alot of pain recently with her operations and it was awful then too. But last night Aaron had to face the fact that his father might not come out of this one unscathed. Thank the gods that he did, but I think the whole experience has worn him down.

We are gonna spend the rest of the day in bed hopefully.

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the inevitabilies in life

(I love FLCL, and I love this song)

Well I guess it was inevitable that I was gonna go to the hospital. Yesterday my leg got much worse, and I ended up in the emergency room instead of going to work. It was HUGE by the time I got there, and the pressure that had built up in my leg from the infection was KILLING me. I tried to go to work first though, and had so much trouble getting into and out of my car I called my mother to reinforce what I was already thinking, which was get to the E.R. NOW. I walked in the back door of work, breathing hard and wincing the whole way, and I told Morgan that I needed to go, that I HAD to go. He said it was fine, that they'd be ok without me there, but he never once looked me in the eyes, or even in my general direction. Honestly, I think he hates me, and at that moment I really didn't care. My whole body was screaming for relief. I had a 100.6 fever, and in frustration at the situation, I cried all of the way back into the car. I cried so hard that I had to pull over because I couldn't see at one point.

I went to Methodist north by my house, because I was afraid that I might not be able to get home easily once they had worked on me. I didn't have to wait long, there was barely anyone in the ER. That was a big relief. It was pretty embarrassing to sit the way had to sit to not feel constant piercing pain. They had to get me all checked in and once I was settled in my little gown and stopped crying long enough for them to drill me about my medical history and such, Aaron showed up and gave me a hand to squeeze while they cut my leg open and got the infection out. It was a lot of fluid: blood and a pus that smelled absolutely horrible. I was so embarrassed about the smell and the sight of the infection, and the nurse made me feel so much better about it. He didn't say that it was common or anything because it really isn't common at all, but he did tell me that this wasn't the first abscess he'd seen and that it could have been much worse if I had waited much longer to come in and get it taken care of. He stressed to me that since I am prone to this sort of thing, that I should never wait to come in and get checked out. They told me that it was probably just bacterial but that I should be very careful because it could easily turn septic and kill me. Because it's the ER and not an actual doctor's office, they couldn't tell me much about the why of it, but they did ask me to get a regular doctor and go to have  blood work done to be sure that the infection isn't still somewhere else in my body, steadily infecting me from time to time. They gave me oxycodone for pain, and doxycycline for an antibiotic, and sent me home.

The whole experience was exhausting, so I took my pills and passed slap out for a few hours. When I woke up the swelling had gone down quite a bit, and today it's even smaller, but it still hurts like hell. Aaron is my rock, and I couldn't have done it so bravely without him. I thank God that I have him in my life. He took the whole day off from work to take care of me. I love that man so much.

Today I feel better, but I am still not able to move freely without pain. I limped all night at work during my short 4 hour shift, and ended up taking a half of a pain pill just to be able to do my job. Thank God it was a night shift because I was slightly loopy from that little pill. Carrie and Arionna really made me feel better about it. They helped me all night, and even did a lot of things for me.

I love you all and I want to thank you
for being there for me when I needed you.

I'm off to watch something to relax and then I'm off to bed.

These little pills are kicking my butt.

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